Life is work and it takes effort. Going easy instead of genuinely towing the line seems to be the best way many times (Real and true for me too). The difference between a good life and a bad life is how we handle it. Frustration and abandonment or perseverance and success, everything is in our choices.
True hell is what I call the “would have, should have wanted” factor after living your life according to the morality of others and not your own genuine morality or to put it more succinctly: you didn’t do what you really did. you wanted. Yes, you slept your whole life depending on everything and everyone else making decisions for you. Things like “I would have won if I had the chance” or “I should have done that turn there” or “I wanted to do it but”: Those are just excuses to sleep a lifetime on autopilot.
What I mean by being a master in hell who aspires to get to heaven is to wake up and take control of your life tirelessly and fearlessly with awakened intellectual influence and awake, realistic thinking. Y action without taking into account other people’s thoughts or what they say, and really, deeply doing what you know to be right rather than “living up to what others think and do.” Genuine courage to truly live is “the next level”, the “last level” and all levels combined, because the genuine door to heaven is doing what you really want to do in a good way that you consider personally and genuinely good. I’m not just saying words, I live these things, bad, good or not, I really live by my own integrated judgment. I don’t just call it how I see it, I live it how I see it, even rejecting being “normal” at times, or being genuinely normal at the “wrong” times that are right for me. In short, I live for myself, fully for myself and without fear for myself. Intuitive or contradictory, that is my reality and I will play the hand correctly, sticking to it as necessary.
After all, heaven for me is winning on my own genuine terms no matter what I am willing to pay for, even genuinely going against the grain as a maverick at times. That was the case since I was a kid at that Rainbow Bridge Center recovery school. However, I never worried about the cost, all that mattered to me was the end results of my actions at any cost. All I care about is getting what I really want out of life, the rest that God, the Devil and all Deities can stay if they understand what I mean. What I want is engraved in the stone of my spiritual and physical reality. I am always willing to push myself to earn what I really want, everything else means nothing to me. I only want the best, not the worst.